Today is my Birthday Yahooo! (Boooo YOU)!

Last night I get to celebrate my Bday with some of my closest friends. Made some California Maki to go with the red wine and vodka (which made me think now hmmm… what’s with me drinking Red wine and eating Maki? lol). We stayed up until 5am or until my head was spinning…hmmm Red wine and Vodka is a bad combo, I was advice never to mix or to take two different alcohols at the same time. How Stupid!

Before I went to bed I remember writing something for my blog, but just as I was about to post it I change my mind. That was really out of this world, I was writing something about what I wish to have and I’m drunk so my mouth or shall I say my mind was blabbering with stupidity. Anyways below are some parts of that deleted post:

“I only have one wish right now. I want 12 books that I can read for the next 12 months or until my next birthday! I’m totally drunk my head is spinning and I wish to watch the music video of “Pure Shore” (All Saints). I always make fun of myself while watching that video, when I’m all smashed up it helps my head to spin some more…Arrgh! This is annoying I can’t even think straight…anyways I want 12 books!!! And maybe I want you too!”

Ok I’m going to cut it right there, the content after that are totally BS and I congratulate myself for thinking twice before posting…can’t reveal any more of my intoxicated brain.

So I went to bed and I can see from my window that it’s already sunny outside hmmm…I held on to my eye mask (or eye cover or whatever you call that thingy that you use to cover your eyes with when sleeping) and turn on the AC so I can sleep in peace.

At 2 pm I woke up with Wacky jumping and showering me birthday kisses. I realized that I have to do something but my head is pounding so I decided to take a quick shower to refresh myself. After that quick bath I gather all the things that I need for that something and HELL YEAH! I was starting my 365 project and so my room is in total mess… I was desperately seeking for white walls where I can pose and get a good clean background, but unfortunately our walls are painted in mustard yellow (poop paint) and blue. I can’t afford to change the wall paint just because I’m starting with this project so I resigned myself to blue background. So, there goes my little dorky-camwhore-self posing and taking pictures.

Finally here are my wish lists for my BDAY:

1. Camera Remote: I need that badly if I want to survive and succeed in this 365 project. It’s hard to take self photos using timer. I feel stupid smiling and projecting for like 10 seconds or until I hear the click sound.
2. 12 new books: I’m still wishing for that!
3. Head Phones: Skullcandy, Urban Ears, Mix-Style or Sennheiser or Monster beats (Monster Beat my face! in my dreams).
4. Hongkong/Macau: I don’t wish to own Hongkong or Macau my wish is to travel back there this year.
5. To Travel ALONE: I want to experience that big time! I wish I can do that!
6. Lots of Money: who would not wish for that LOL!
7. Quit Smoking: Yes I’m wishing to have that will power to stop this bad habit.
8. Good Health: Not only for myself but for my Family and Friends as well.
9. More Friends: I wish to gain more friends and reconcile with those I have issue with.
10. More Skills: It’s never too late to learn more things I wish I can be good in guitars, photography and I wish to learn at least two new languages I’m planning Korean, Japanese or French.

Maybe I should also wish to have a fairy odd parent Haha! So I can rush those little fancy! And lastly I wish for World Peace! (My humor is getting repulsive everyday) LOL.

Anyways, that’s all that I have for today…I got a lot of greetings from friends and that made my day. I’m so happy and I feel so blessed for having a very supportive family and friends that keeps me sane. I wouldn’t trade them for anything. On second thought maybe I can trade them for a million dollar! HAHAHA!

ME and ALL OF ME!

I visited my old blog account to read and laugh at the silliest me over the years and while I was chucking and cursing about how stupid I was during those days I realized that things hasn’t change at all. I’m still that person who complains about the littlest things in life and I Rant! Rant! Rant!

Tomorrow I will be earning another ring in my skin and I’m dying to say that I have matured over the years. But the fact still remains: I’m STILL THE SAME, I’m still childish, I’m still inconsistent, I’m still unpredictable, I’m still fickle-minded, I'm Still the spoiled little girl, I'm Still stubborn, I'm Still Compassionate, I'm Still Funny, I'm Still the most Simple and Complex person all at the same time, I'm Still the girl who laughs and roll on the floor, I'm Still the person who randomly decides on random things, I'm still Reckless and Conscious at the same time, I'm Still the Sarcastic Sadistic Witch, I'm still the sensitive cry baby, I'm Still the Daughter, Mother, Sister, Niece, Cousin, Friend, Colleague, Foe (if you think I am one of yours) and I’m still that soul trap inside this aging body.

Below are the excerpts from some of my blog post year 2008-2007. Unfortunately I can’t remember my livejuornal and bravehost account which is somehow good because I know how negative I was during those times and I’d rather forget about that.

Me and my no sleeping habit

December 2008 “Pagod na Ako”

“Ngayon ko lang naramdaman lahat ng pagod...minsan iniisip ko kung ang computer nga eh sina shut down...

araw-araw 2 hours of sleep, no day off except on Sundays...dragging my self out off bed every single day...”

August 17 2008 “5am and the Ghost”

“So it’s 5am and I lay a wake, bored, no new book to read, no nice show to watch, no one to talk to…what do you do at this time?”

August 16 2008 “ Sleep Sleep VS Bingo”

Today I planned to sleep early. So I went to my room and lie down but my plans was all ruined by the noise outside my window…People are playing BINGO!!!

So the disadvantage of living beside a basketball court now ruled over me…

I can’t sleep! It’s loud and noisy! People scream and the announcers are hilarious…or maybe I’m denying the fact that I am also entertained by how the announcers generate such meaning for every letters. The crowd! The excitement of the crowd as they anxiously wait for the last few letters and numbers to be called so they can win the J-A-C-K-P-O-T… and shout at the top of their lungs B-I-N-G-O!!!! Like it’s the last word that they’ll be saying on their death bed!

As for me…poor me… pretty me… (I know…the pretty part is all true! hehehehe) will have to wait for the game to end, for the crowd to disperse and soon sleep will take over my lovely me! Hehehehe…well, I decided to accept the noise as entertaining rather than annoying, anyway I don’t have any choice and besides I’m trying to channel my aura to a more positive, calm and happy bubuli force…so I vent to writing and listing to good music and occasional peeking outside the window and getting a good laugh! PEACE! Este! BINGO!

Me and my Health/ Mental Health

December 14 2008

“What will you do if you found out that I wake up on the wrong side of the bed, feeling dizzy and grumpy; not in the mood for anything except to bully every living thing that comes my way?

I wouldn’t really know maybe you should call Mandaluyong and tell the head of the psychiatric ward to send in 5 guys with one straight jacket!”

August 27, 2008 “Sick today/ gone tomorrow”

“Today I’m feeling awfully sick, muscle pain, headache and stomach ache…PAIN…I love to think that I am sick because of too much drinking (two days straight)…whoa! (Hehehe I wish). I think I got sick of too much thinking, you see I’ve been through a lot these past few years. Things that I cannot even imagine, not even in my wildest dreams… I think through time you can acquire a certain disease because of too much stress, whether emotional, spiritual, psychological or physical.

Someone told me a few months back, when you feel certain pain in your body and you didn’t do anything about it, chances are you will have greater problem in the future…like a simple headache that’s been distracting you for more than a few days and yet you never do anything about it (talk about my migraine that has been bothering me for so many years, usually starts at November and last until January)

For almost two years I’ve been feeling sick and tired, but for some special reasons I pretend not to feel the pain.

Today I woke up and anxiety took over me and yes I embrace it with arms wide open, yes! Welcome to infirmity…so I took a couple of medicine one for body pain, one for cold , one for cough and another one for fever (hehehe overdose) oh, I forgot I also took one for LBM (addict mode!) plus my regular vitamin potencee 2x a day… sh*t its been a long time since I entertain the pain of being sick hehehehe…for me feeling sick is an option...it’s a choice, if I want to feel sick or just postpone it for another day it my choice! Hehehe. But not anymore, I’m paying the price today. Sob…”

2007

NO SLEEP + ILL HEALTH = Disastrous Catastrophic self-destruction ala mode w/cherry on top.

“My weight has dropped down, my cousin who I haven’t seen for (only) a week told me that I look thin…Thanks! Thanks! That’s the supreme consolation and the most wonderful consequence of illness…like what I’ve said before: Felling sick is a choice, an option, I can postpone it for another day, weeks, months and even a years if want too! But nope, not this time…It Hit Me BIG TIME! It really got me….”

Me and the Choices made between mini mini my nimo

November 2, 2008 Choose your Choice

At this point I’m in a situation wherein I have to choose which one will do better in my condition. Amidst all the Trials and Triumphs the aftermath of all my past decisions whether good or bad…still doesn’t stop.

This time it’s far more different than what I was accustomed to…it’s a choice between the best given pick and the one that the norms will think is the best pick…Challenging my belief and principles, which is very tough.

I just can’t, although it’s very tempting…

This requires too much emotion on my part and on the part of my pick who never really mind what the norms think and doesn’t give a b*llsh*t… I was lucky to have that.

2007 Pretext of Human Failure

Before you say its destiny and fate, let me tell you about choices…idiots! Destiny and fate: lame excuse…its choices! CHOICES!

So stop blaming the stars for the disastrous out come …

Take the U turn

Yes! I took a big U Turn just like the one in C5…

And guess what it was good and smooth,

It was never too late to go back and take the U TURN…

Ayos! Ayos!

Pwede!

Me and that wicked woman

August 23, 2008

“Last week I was asked to move to a new office space, at first I was really furious, after hearing all the plans that was made before me, I was really depressed and frustrated…Why would they move me to a new office space after being comfortable and productive in my turf!?...so my colleague (who’s not at fault) approached me asking how may tables would I need for my new space? Guess what? I answered the question with an in your face manner and said “you know what? I don’t need a new table and I don’t care how many tables you give me the point is I’m not moving…AYOKO! OK!” and then walked out banging my badge on the door!

Yup! Yup! I made a scene. Every one was talking about my walked out moment …but after puffing my good old cigarette, I’ve realized how unprofessional I acted and I know it’s a mistake…so I went back to my colleague and apologized for my childish act…and my apology was accepted, I guess he knows where I’m coming from.”

Well that’s all that I can post for now since I’m still trying to asses the things that I should be doing at this age…But I’m thankful that God has given me the strength to surpass all the trails. Looking back, who would think that I’ll be able to make it here. At some point I lost my control and totally give up but I refuse to be defeated, instead I encourage the competitive streak in me and take all the challenge that comes along my way. I survived the dark ages and here I am now back my sunny sunshine attitude. Cheers!

To The WORLD!

I’m not a professional Blogger. I don’t even advertise or earn from my blog, the soul purpose of my blogging is just to vent out whatever emotions or ideas I have in mind. Although it would be really great if I’ll be earning while doing this I feel that it will also put pressure on the things that I like to do. Blogging for me is just a hobby and I'm enjoying this.

I have added some widgets like Live Feeds, Flag counter and inserted Google Analytics here in mygoodriddance because I want to know from what countries you guys come from, let me show you.

Countries Reading Mygoodriddance via Flag Counter:

I have 2, 723 hits from 61 Countries all in all…hmmm and there are roughly around 195 independent countries in the world today, so I’m missing 134. But I have included the 61 Territories and 6 dispute Territories (duh, my dorkiness is attacking me) so I’m missing 68 countries.LOL

Live Traffic Feed also helps me identify the visitors of my blog in real time. However the only information you’ll get are the Arrival or Departure of the Country, OS, Browser and the Long Description (the topics they have landed).

Via Live Traffic Feed: SAMPLE

My point is, even if I haven’t visited your country I feel like my soul has traveled there knowing that some of my craft has reached the comfort of your computers. I somehow feel that I am making something out of this.

To make it more specific I have attached Google Analytics to my blog although my knowledge is not substantial enough to dice out all information that I get from it, but at least I know the basic. Google Analytics is designed to give you a more sophisticated information it generate statistics about your website, it is mostly used by webmaster and technologists to track the visitors activities in their website, however GA was originally designed for marketers to monitor their site's earnings. The main use of GA for me is to track my visitors, see how effective my site is and to know what’s the most search post or topics that interest my readers (but still I randomly write whatever I feel writing so I failed in making a follow through). GA can track visitors from all referrers, including search engines, pay per click networks and other forms of link. Again I’m a neophyte to this so if I failed to understand some statistics my apology to the scholars (instructors are very much welcome).

Top 15 Searched Keywords: Did you search for these words to get here?

(Let me highlight those that made me ROFL. I've selected some of the most peculiar keywords )

1. Mygoodriddance
2. amana resort waves everyday at what time
3. Emotional self control how
4. Good riddance "when you grow up" heart dies
5. good riddance play at a funeral
6. Analysis of the song "gold rush brides"
7. What does joga bjork mean?
8. Detective julie vega
9. Do the betsin can cause death?
10. Mini mini my nimo?
11. Sacrament of waiting
12. Thesis tungkol sa pre marital sex
13. Passport application through dfa
14. sss digitized id and sss id differences
15. Cagbalete

Top 10 Sources: How did you get here?

1. Direct
2. Blogger.com
3. Twitter.com
4. Google
5. Blogcatalog.com
6. Facebook
7. levzgoodriddance.webs.com
8. magiting.blogspot.com (oops flagging)
9. yahoo
10. search.mywebsearch.com

Some people might ask and criticize: why are you blogging? Or don’t you have enough friends that you can talk to? Or are you living a tedious life? Or what satisfaction do you get by showing everyone how you feel? Or why don’t you get a life? Et cetera...Et cetera…

Well, we live our own life, don’t we? About having friends, I have a handful of trusted friends that I can talk to. If you’re asking about my life, it’s pretty colorful or may I add erratic to some extent, I sometimes failed to juggle things because I’m too occupied, so therefore I HAVE A LIFE. If you ask me what do I get from this and do I like showing off my complex bizarre mind…that’s none of anyone’s business, it’s my prerogative. If you feel that I disgust you…well, feel free to mock and bash me but it’s your choice and my choice if I’ll be affected. LOL

Anyways, Hello Word! Welcome to my turf and I feel so honored to be at your service. Your comments and suggestions are very much welcome and I would heartily appreciate any words from you guys. I hope you won’t get tired of reading my peculiar and what not mind.

GLAM ROCK: MEMORY REPERTOIRE

Who wouldn’t remember Guns n’ Roses, Poison, Skid Row, Aerosmith, Kiss, Boston, Cheap Trick, Motley Crue, Cinderella, Warrant, Slaughter, White Lion, Danger Danger and Van Halen (oh, forgive me if I failed to mention your favorite Glam Rock Band)

Today I’m feeling a little nostalgic, going back to the Glam Era…Since I started the day listening to Poison’s “Until you suffer some (Fire and Ice)” oh yeah, it feels just right. Nothing beats the powerful heavily reverb drum beat, the catchy hooks and guitar riffs with effin’ shredded guitar solos and high screaming voice. The Glam get up *woot* to those sexy man who wore those tight black demin, spandex or leather jeans, headband or bandana, those who carries spiked bangs bleach blonde long hair, black and white make up and over flowing of silver accessories. A rock and roll lifestyle of partying all night and hell yeah! they can grind, remember Axl’s snake dance? And not to mention those Flying V guitars and understanding the use tremolo bar. Who wouldn’t miss that?

Glam is one of the music I grew up listening to, although I started listening to New Waves and British Rock at the age of 8-10 (I guess?). Glam is one of the music that influenced me to hold and play the guitar. As far as I can remember the basic chords for Glam Rock are G-D-A-C just play along with those 4 chords and I’m sure you’ll be just fine. And yes!, I wouldn’t deny the fact that I was one of those who struggled really hard just to learn how to play GnR’s “Sweet Child of Mine”, and all the effin’ ways to play it, you can play it normally like holding your guitar right in front of you showing off your skillful fingers or you can play it by putting the guitar at your back for a little exhibition and amazement of the audience . *boohoo* unfortunately I failed in doing the back part or both HAHAHA.

Why do I listen to Glam? That’s very simple. I like the lyrics, straight forward yet full of feelings. The song convey the real emotions of the song writer and the melodies are catchy, although a little noisy because of the vocalist boisterous sexy voice. I love the guitar riffs and the solos, it’s not as complicated as most of the rock songs now a days. The riffs are much clearer and easy to follow. By listening to it you'll be able to identify what kind of Guitar Effects used mostly Overdrive, Wah, Delay and Reverb or Chorus unlike today’s Rock music (if I can ever classify one) more digitized and uses a lot of sound mixes. Not saying that I don't like the RnR of this generation, it's just different from the Old School RnR.

I don’t know... but I really like listening to Glam Rock maybe because it offers appealing guitar riffs or maybe because I love listening to the vocalist voice (sexy charisma~Oh Sebastian Bach!^^) or maybe because I’m not your average girl who listened to Milli Vanilli or Vanilla Ice during those era, although I had fun listening to Cypress Hill. I really don't know. Oh hey! by the way, I’m not that old~~ just musically inclined^^ LOL!

Phantom of the Goblet

Last March Wacky and I was invited by Kaye and Kevin to celebrate Genelle’s birthday at Thunder Bird Hotel and Casino, Angono Rizal. That night I have to drop off Wacky back at our place (it’s still a school day), since I was home I decided to take 3 wine glasses from our bar, I told Kaye that I won’t be drinking rum or anything heavy since I haven’t got any sleep. So off we went to buy one bottle of red wine before heading back to the hotel.

We stayed at the room’s veranda since we can’t smoke inside. The guys were drinking rum and cola and we gals are drinking wine, there were only five of us drinking that night. Of course It wouldn’t be normal if I would not be snatching photos of the event, however since both of my cameras battery are dead I borrowed Kaye’s cam. So I was taking pictures of everyone and cam whoring as well, then I took a shot of the wine glass that I was using.

A few days after, Kaye uploaded the photos and she was surprise to see a face in the glass, she called everyone who was there with her and some said it was a man with a mustache, someone even said that it looks like Jesus Christ (thou shall take the name of Lord in vain, Sorry) and she even thought it looks like Che Guevara (I thought so too).

At first I really can’t see the image on the glass, but after showing it to everyone in the house including my two aunts and my mother, that’s the only time I believe that there is really a figure. But I’m a person who don’t easily believe in what can’t be explained by science or by logic I refuse to think that it’s an apparition or some sort of a warning, although everyone in the family is making fun of me, teasing that it’s a sign because I don’t go to church regularly (oh well).

I think there must be some logical explanation as to how that image or that figure was formed. You can clearly see my finger prints if you look closer at the image, the temperature of the wine reacting to the temperature of the glass thus creating moist, the dark background and of course the glare coming from the flash of the camera all contributed to the illusion. But whatever that is, I really don’t buy the idea that it’s supernatural or what not, I’m not someone who would go and shout “I saw a sign” (in the tune of ACE of BASE) or change my way of living because it’s a signal that I’m not living in holiness or I have an afflicted spiritual life or because I don’t go to church regularly and other reasons that I hope not to offend anyone. I know where my faith is and I’m confident that I’m a Christian and I believe in the Holy Trinity.

Anyway just for the fun of it, I think I saw Adolf Hitler, Che Guevara and after zooming out the image I can see Alf (haha). Well, I hope it’s not kulot my friendly guard (kulot is what we call this entity it is coined after some witnesses said it has a curly hair) my friends believed that it has been following me since college. I barely believe in kulot but my ex boyfriends (HAHA only had 3 serious, ok?!^^) claimed that they have seen it in our house. They have the same description under different scenarios of course, someone even saw it standing behind me while I was waiving goodbye and it’s quite an annoyance since it can imitate voice and pretend to be someone. Haven’t heard about kulot for a long time, maybe because I am single (HAHA I’m starting to sound like a freak here). Well, just check the photos.

RIP Skullcandy/ My Urban Jungle Soundtrack

I use to have a Pink Low Rider Skullcandy (RIP) but unfortunately due to my clumsiness I accidentally dropped it and rolled my swivel office chair on it. I tried reviving it using instant glue or some sort of adhesives but it didn’t help (I curse whoever invented that compound used in that darn plastic ^^), it’s not designed for sticky stuffs and I will surely die if someone will suggest to stitch it using metal wire arrrgh!. I gave up and kept it safe in my drawer after grieving for two weeks.

Now this is my ultimate wish: Monster Beat by Dr Dre, the reason for my drooling.

Unfortunately it’s quite pricey (sigh) a raging P12, 000-15,000 for a headset, it's a no way highway. Anyways, I’m thinking about buying a new skullcandy or a sennheiser or a mix-style headphones or an UrbanEars at least I can afford those

Mix-Style Headphones

Urban Ears Headphones

Sennheiser Headphones

Well anyways, let me share my URBAN JUNGLE SOUNDTRACK. It’s my daily energy booster and it helps me start my day right. I change my playlist every once in a while but I’ve been listening to this for almost two months now. Happy Music ^^

1. Absinthe Party at the Fly Hone Warehouse – Minus the Bear

2. Pachuca Sunrise – Minus the Bear

3. Candy Everybody Wants- 10,000 maniacs

4. This Charming Man – The smith

5. Girls and boys in love- The Rumble Strips

6. Morning Charm- Standfast

7. Trouble Sleeping- Corrine Bailey Rae

8. She’s so Lovely – Scouting for Girls

9. London Rain – Heather Nova

10. Foundation- Kate Nash

11. Up Against the Wall- Peter Bjorn and John

12. Object of my Affection- Peter Bjorn and John

13. Naïve(The Kooks Cover)- Lilly Allen

14. I Don’t know why – Moony

15. Just the way you are- Milky

16. First Train Home- Imogen Heap

17. Yabai- Arashi (Jun Matsumoto) ^^

18. Pure Shore – All Saints

19. Sun Burn Chilitees Remix- Sandwich

20. Too young to Die- Jamiroquai

21. Tender Buttons- Broadcast

22. Get up and go- Broadcast 2000

23. Vlad the Impaler- Kasabian

24. Let’s Get F*cked up and Die- Motion City Soundtrack

25. Fell in Love without you – Motion City Soundtrack

26. I got soul but I’m not a Soldier- The Killers

27. Sound of Settling- Death Cab for Cutie

28. Shooting the Moon- OK GO

29. Strange and Beautiful – Aqualung

30. Oh Lately it’s so Quiet- OK GO

31. Breakeven- The Script

32. New Soul- Yael Naim

33. Wish- Jem

34. Just a Ride- Jem

35. Poor Little Rich Boy- Regina Spektor

On a different note:

Why is it so hard to insert photos in Blogger?

Do I have to work on HTML whenever I Post Pictures?

Hmmmm...I'll figure this effin' thing out.