YAY! YAH! HAH! Nervously Anxious!

Pffft! Sigh! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! I’m going nuts! Tomorrow I need to be fast! I’m getting agitated, nervous, disturb, troubled, worried, jumpy, panicky, tense, uneasy that’s all the adjective I can think of to describe how I feel for tomorrow! Dang! I can’t say why but I’ll be posting the reason for my highly eager state tomorrow if I succeed! please don’t make me fail! I got one clue though….

RAT RACE BABY!!!

I have plans, my dangerous mind is playing. I know myself very well when it comes to planning and putting things into action, I know I can make it. I’m very competitive and cognitive recognition is exceedingly outstanding. I can do things once I put my heart into it, I should know that, I’ve done it a thousand times! Waaaaaaaaahahaha I’m trying to motivate myself real bad…real real bad! Hahaha!

I don’t know but I really like you so I gotta have you…so tomorrow you will be mine!!!

Bwaaaaaahahahaha! *evil grin*

Wooooh LET’S GO LEVZ! FIGHT! AYT!

Mr. November you’re breaking the GIRL

This month is a little too hot to handle …ummm actually mid October my schedule has been packed in a sardine can and I can’t barely move my fin I’ve no space. Literally running from one place to another, no sleep and tired so a groupie of pimples started camping on face particularly on my upper lip like some kind of hipsters in starbucks! That’s not hot!

So first day of November was spent lying on my bed because the day before that has spent my human form going to our first gown fitting for Vanity’s wedding at the groom’s residence in Fairview, Bridal shower party planning which was spend like 5 hours in Starbucks in Timog and going to the cemetery after to pay respect to our gramps in San Juan! Not to mention my drop off at tiendesitas where my Family pick me up to go with them, by the time I went home to Cainta at 1am I was seriously, deliriously crawling to my bed.

So all for the love of self preservation and exquisiteness I confined myself in the bed for first week of November and the result was amazing the groupie of pimples are almost gone, dark circles around my eyes are almost non visible and I’m becoming more relax than exhausted.

Now predicting my November schedule is driving me nuts, I have two bridal Shower to take care of, the first one that is Vanity’s party will be held in Victoria court and I’m so lucky to have good friends who assist us in making the event possible without me getting panicky and so as the Bride. The second Bridal shower for Kaye will be held in Holiday Inn and with a little help from our friends we were able to finalize the details of the event as well. Our home will be welcoming baby “Angelo” to come out late November to early December so that’s another thing to look forward to. And we also have to schedule a baby shower for my sister in law. And what else do I have on my plate aside from those hmmm…. let me think….Oh! Our Dog Yukisan a toy poodle is with us now and hell yeah she’s a hottie! ^^

I have to run a lot of errands this month, going to places to get props and souvenirs for the Bridal Showers, planning the program, contacting the person for each venue and etc. but I get help that’s the nicest part ^^.

So Mr. Great November! Let’s break it or make it but don’t break your Girl! Don’t let me come undone! hahaha!

My Mind is perplexed, now that’s a Meme!

I don’t know what it means but every part of me is awesomely contradicting each part? You see, I have this very warm feeling inside so warm that I feel so cold. I also feel outlandishly happy- amazingly happy that I feel sad over this extreme happiness, is that happty-sad? I sigh over trivial things not the Negative-Annoying-Sigh but more of the Haay-what am I going to do?-Sigh, have you ever feel that?

I’m starting to believe that I'm experiencing olfactory hallucination because I can smell the same scent and I kept on following that scent to no avail but still fail to see where it’s coming from, all I know is I can smell sweet scents of musky flowers, it gives me shivers. I smile in a sudden swift not knowing why. My mood is as ever changing, and I feel like I'm riding a ship in a squall. But despite all of this shifts I still find it nice- NICE that’s all of I can think of, the best I can describe how I feel- I FEEL NICE.

I’m spacing out, I look at nothingness, and I swear, I can see that there is something in there, like it was there for a reason, a reason only I can understand. I wonder why I can see details, completeness and meaning amidst that emptiness, I'm seeing it like an abstract piece of art waiting to be scrutinize. WHAT THE F IS THAT?

Lately I’ve been listening to sad music, ok! Call that emo (whatever) but I’m rather confuse because I smile with every line...tch! get this: “ ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone, it’s not warm when she’s away, ain’t know sunshine when she’s gone, she’s always gone too long anytime she goes away…” what is there to smile about, tell me? But hey! look at me grinning like a fool! And I blame my brother for posting Maxwell’s new song “Pretty Wings” at his FB wall, now I smirk like a dupe listening to it for the Nth time and banging my head in an RnB motion. Maxwell is so amazing, how he can sing a sad song and makes me feel otherwise. Genius!

Have you ever had this feeling like... umm... when you feel like eating your favorite candy and yet you feel so guilty because someone wants it more than you do? So what do you do? Hahaha! You look at that person with an irritating but bewildered look, harhar! but still refuse to give up on your candy so you sat there quietly and just leave it like that, then walk away. Duh! of course I won’t give that person my candy, but I won’t eat my candy in front of that person either. I’m not going to watch that sad looking face and I’m not going to let that person watch my victorious chew as I take pleasure in each bite. LOLS! I’m not your sadistic nor masochistic kinda’ girl but sometimes, just sometimes I find it exciting *rolling my eyes in delight*….hahaha my heart is such a meme and it‘s working dumb today…I feel so confused.

~Away from me to see clearly, the way that love can be when you are not with me...

I HAD TO LEAVE, I HAD TO LIVE!

~~~FLY YOUR PRETTY WINGS AROUND.

I recommend to all my ladies to Eat. Pray. LOVE.

It all started last Sunday when my cousin put this shout out on her wall, she said “I want to watch EAT PRAY LOVE who’s with me?” and I hit the like button and so as one of our friends. Next thing I know she’s already telling me the time she would pick me up. You see my gals’ works in speed, hehe!

Off we go to Power Plant with my sleeplessness psyche, half way to the mall I took the liberty of sleeping and from time to time would butt in at their conversation. They woke me up when we’re in the parking lot, so much for my 20 mins of slumber, power nap indeed.

I was looking forward to watching this movie although I was hoping that I can speed read it before going to the big screen, but my cousin won’t let me do that, she’s so determine to watch the movie that even if I beg for a 5 days allowance to read it first, she will still insist. So I was there, no sleep since Friday night but armed with my Macchiato and curiosity, I went there hoping I won’t lose my mind to sleep.

Eat Pray Love is a story about a woman searching for life’s balance, the not-to-miss opportunities and finding freedom and self realization in life. The book was written by Elizabeth Gilbert, she accounts her experience travelling around the world, her divorce, the people she met and her discoveries in every trip. She gave a full description of her life experience and shared it with her reader. The title EAT PRAY LOVE represents her journey and discoveries in the three countries she have visited, ITALY, INDIA, INDONESIA. The film adaptation carries the same title and Gilbert was portrayed by Julia Roberts, judging from the reviews and some synopsis that I have read, I believe that Roberts and the Director of the film was able to give justice to the movie.

Now I’m craving to read the book, so bad that I’m turning into loco searching the net, but on second thoughs I think it is something that I should really have, I meant a hard copy, so next pay day I’m going to run to the nearest bookstore and get myself two of her books, the EAT PRAY LOVE and the sequel~ COMMITED: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage. And now I’m also planning to purchase all of her written books, hehehe, The last American man, The Stern Men and Pilgrims. I got myself a project to work onto.

After the movie we were all craving for pasta but a t 11 pm I doubt if any decent chef would be happy cook for us. Dang! I was craving for Vongole! Well, I told my couz that if we can’t eat pasta then I rather have Japanese food so we went for a drive in Little Tokyo but no success! So we ended up eating at Shakey’s hahaha!

With my movie buddies, my cousins Sheila and Ivee and our good friend Lanz!

Countessa of the East

Today I shall not sleep because Ayala will be close by 5pm – 10am and I’m anticipating chaos in my commuter's life~~ honestly speaking I don’t know much about Makati’s side street. So my plan is to leave early, as early as 10pm, if worst comes to worst I’ll have time finding my way to reach my 2am shift. If I’ll have extra time… ummm… then I might roam around Ayala with my Camera and see what I can get there…You see, I’m very vigilant of what’s happening around, so attentive that I’m completely oblivious of tonight’s events in Makati, lols! Is it October fest or Marathon or Rally? I wouldn’t give a dam really! We’ll see!

Anyhow, last night I started training new bloods and hopefully I’ll be done with product training tomorrow so we can start sucking blood, bwaaahahahaha!

I still need one more new blood to join my army…would you like to be my newbie? Bwaaaahahaha!

My lappy’s keyboard is acting strange, I think he had grown a brain of his own and decided to rebel against me. YO! Keyboard wakey wakey don’t be stubborn baby!

Commuter's Note: I got you under my Spell!

Today on my way home I was greeted by an odd man who looks at me like I’m a piece of cordon bleu and he’s a famished creature ready to devour. I usually commute my way home since it’s easier to get a ride not to mention cheaper, and I like napping inside the fx. Unfortunately that weird man took the same ride so I have no choice but to keep myself awake for the entire 45 mins ride. What a pain in the @ss.

Yep, I got a little bit scared good thing the fx was full otherwise I have no choice but to go down and take a cab and that would be like 200++ pesos dent on my pocket vs 40 pesos fare, darn! Plus I ride a cab everyday on my way to work so that’s a total of effin 500 pesos for a day’s fare and of course I’m not crazy!

Well, I don’t know but I usually flare up when I notice someone is suspiciously staring at me and confront them casually, it’s instinctive or my reflex to protect myself. But not today, maybe my magic doesn’t work or I am too tired to be barbaric so I let it go and just watch his every moves…but I was all up for a fight if he moves in a different direction, luckily my spell silently works and he behaved after receiving my powerful glare!