To a Happy Endings or a Broken Hearts

To find love in a magical way was her dream. She sees everything like a romance novel and she’s not changing any of that. She dream of walk in the park, laughter in the sun dusk, cuddle in the rain, silly conversation under the starlit night, drinking wine eating cheese and love conversation, reading poems under a shady tree. She's aware that she’s dreaming of love that is surreal, a failure to any hearts---Still she keeps on dreaming.

1st Fun under the Sun~ TM Galore!

Boy! It’s not summer yet but I’m preparing myself for all the adventure that I’ll be taking this year. Last year I said I can’t stand the sun, so when the summer sun arrives I was nowhere to be found--- but was able to see the beach just for a glance at least in bataan and batangas but seriously it was hot.

This year I will take the heat and enjoy everything. For starter I had a simple get away with my team to Antipolo, this is actually a late Christmas celebration since last December our schedules are loaded and we decided to focus more on our priority, our family. We rented a private place to spend our night singing and swimming the entire cold January night (which I wasn’t able to do because I can’t stand the water, its freaking cold).

I’m changing everyday!

I said the first step to freedom is change and I would do it first by recreating myself…freedom to express myself in how I look and what I choose to wear. I had my hair cut but not too short because that’s just the way I like it, I’m back to my bangs and my hair color (had DIY) is a mix between golden blond and golden brown. You will see me looking more like a gypsy or boho walking in Makati lol.

To embrace Freedom is to take the first step!

I was feeling a little slouchy, I have a lot of things to do and my work are all filling up. The last thing that I wish to do is to conduct an interview, but to my surprise (finally) a substantial amount of living person came in to give me some good lesson.

Interviews are boring, you ask them series of similar questions depending on the person’s resume I can predict how well the response can be. Today a young man was able to make some sense. He worked in a restaurant as a supervisor (a small unknown takeout chain in Makati), he started as a crew and climbed his way to the top, he was giving statistics of how much they increase in his six years of service. I was impressed, not because a small business like that earns a lot; I was impressed because he knew what he was talking about.

The Musical Oeuvre--Kevin and Kaye!

Last 2009 when Kaye told me they have plans of getting married I was excited. They were still on the stage of planning and don’t have any slight idea to begin with. So when Kaye told me that she wants me to be her Maid of Honor I was a little bit surprise because with all honesty I’m not the best person to speak with when it comes to marriage (go figure lol). But because they’re both good friends and I would like to offer all the help that I can give and Kaye is more like a little brat sister to me I accepted her proposal. And so the musical idea begins.

Track 11

Today I’m listening to track 11 of which artist/band/album? ---that’s a secret that I have to keep. Right now that song represents my current situation and amazingly answers my questions…from the line “made me realize what I could not see”, indeed I have seen.

After taking so much time on someone who refuses to listen but insist on talking even if her world is falling apart and her end is about to come. I realized that the reason why she’s crumbling down is her resistance to change and denial of reality.

You won’t always get my answer- coz I don’t have em!

It’s funny how people always laugh when I give them the stupidest answer to their most normal question. Ok let me replace that: I always give the lamest, stupidest, sarcastic answer to their questions and they still laugh. You can try and engage a conversation with me in my most normal state and all you’ll get from me are stupid nonsense. I don’t carry all the answers for you, my disk has a limit in capacity. But I'll always say (whenever I have a chance) never be afraid to ask and so they always ask (hehehe). Very well, they know how to follow instructions.

We like to Party! The Lotlot and Friends Style

Last Christmas I was (again) task to organize a party for my friends (I think it’s becoming their habit). We rented a room in a cheap hotel just to make it more private and here are some of the scenes.
Alright, that's not a real gun that's from Vanity's wii and being a poser of course it won't escape my camera.

My passion for reading

I stop reading last year, I think I got myself a couple of good books that I failed to read because (A) I was lazy, (B) I was too busy, (C) every time I start opening a page I get easily bored or I refuse to read, (D) I rather rest and let my time pass watching Korean and Japanese Movie/Drama coz I was making an excuse that reading subtitles can compensate whatever I am missing in the excitement of reading a real book. Last year my passion for reading was poor and I regret that.