My Mind is perplexed, now that’s a Meme!

I don’t know what it means but every part of me is awesomely contradicting each part? You see, I have this very warm feeling inside so warm that I feel so cold. I also feel outlandishly happy- amazingly happy that I feel sad over this extreme happiness, is that happty-sad? I sigh over trivial things not the Negative-Annoying-Sigh but more of the Haay-what am I going to do?-Sigh, have you ever feel that?

I’m starting to believe that I'm experiencing olfactory hallucination because I can smell the same scent and I kept on following that scent to no avail but still fail to see where it’s coming from, all I know is I can smell sweet scents of musky flowers, it gives me shivers. I smile in a sudden swift not knowing why. My mood is as ever changing, and I feel like I'm riding a ship in a squall. But despite all of this shifts I still find it nice- NICE that’s all of I can think of, the best I can describe how I feel- I FEEL NICE.

I’m spacing out, I look at nothingness, and I swear, I can see that there is something in there, like it was there for a reason, a reason only I can understand. I wonder why I can see details, completeness and meaning amidst that emptiness, I'm seeing it like an abstract piece of art waiting to be scrutinize. WHAT THE F IS THAT?

Lately I’ve been listening to sad music, ok! Call that emo (whatever) but I’m rather confuse because I smile with every line...tch! get this: “ ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone, it’s not warm when she’s away, ain’t know sunshine when she’s gone, she’s always gone too long anytime she goes away…” what is there to smile about, tell me? But hey! look at me grinning like a fool! And I blame my brother for posting Maxwell’s new song “Pretty Wings” at his FB wall, now I smirk like a dupe listening to it for the Nth time and banging my head in an RnB motion. Maxwell is so amazing, how he can sing a sad song and makes me feel otherwise. Genius!

Have you ever had this feeling like... umm... when you feel like eating your favorite candy and yet you feel so guilty because someone wants it more than you do? So what do you do? Hahaha! You look at that person with an irritating but bewildered look, harhar! but still refuse to give up on your candy so you sat there quietly and just leave it like that, then walk away. Duh! of course I won’t give that person my candy, but I won’t eat my candy in front of that person either. I’m not going to watch that sad looking face and I’m not going to let that person watch my victorious chew as I take pleasure in each bite. LOLS! I’m not your sadistic nor masochistic kinda’ girl but sometimes, just sometimes I find it exciting *rolling my eyes in delight*….hahaha my heart is such a meme and it‘s working dumb today…I feel so confused.

~Away from me to see clearly, the way that love can be when you are not with me...

I HAD TO LEAVE, I HAD TO LIVE!

~~~FLY YOUR PRETTY WINGS AROUND.

Commuter's Note: I got you under my Spell!

Today on my way home I was greeted by an odd man who looks at me like I’m a piece of cordon bleu and he’s a famished creature ready to devour. I usually commute my way home since it’s easier to get a ride not to mention cheaper, and I like napping inside the fx. Unfortunately that weird man took the same ride so I have no choice but to keep myself awake for the entire 45 mins ride. What a pain in the @ss.

Yep, I got a little bit scared good thing the fx was full otherwise I have no choice but to go down and take a cab and that would be like 200++ pesos dent on my pocket vs 40 pesos fare, darn! Plus I ride a cab everyday on my way to work so that’s a total of effin 500 pesos for a day’s fare and of course I’m not crazy!

Well, I don’t know but I usually flare up when I notice someone is suspiciously staring at me and confront them casually, it’s instinctive or my reflex to protect myself. But not today, maybe my magic doesn’t work or I am too tired to be barbaric so I let it go and just watch his every moves…but I was all up for a fight if he moves in a different direction, luckily my spell silently works and he behaved after receiving my powerful glare!

As wreck as you think you are not!

Hahaha! I can’t help but laugh silently whenever I see people who are so darn hypocrite trying to live a lavida loca life huh?! Dang I feel bad for them and they have no way to go but out! Oh and those few who believe and goes with their “I-see-it-is- real”~ ooops it’s a REEL!

It’s frustrating me because I don’t see their real heart or maybe that’s not it. It’s because I know exactly who they are and what’s in their heart and I feel sorry to those who surrounds them and think that they are seeing that person’s legitimacy or content! Errrrr! WRONG! It’s a now you see and darn! you see more…more…more! More of the slicker skin!

It’s a NO, not your fairytale Baby! Fairies doesn’t exist, nor prince charming, no unicorns and what rainbow bubbles? Tsk! Wake up baby before I burst your bubbles!

Phantom of the Goblet

Last March Wacky and I was invited by Kaye and Kevin to celebrate Genelle’s birthday at Thunder Bird Hotel and Casino, Angono Rizal. That night I have to drop off Wacky back at our place (it’s still a school day), since I was home I decided to take 3 wine glasses from our bar, I told Kaye that I won’t be drinking rum or anything heavy since I haven’t got any sleep. So off we went to buy one bottle of red wine before heading back to the hotel.

We stayed at the room’s veranda since we can’t smoke inside. The guys were drinking rum and cola and we gals are drinking wine, there were only five of us drinking that night. Of course It wouldn’t be normal if I would not be snatching photos of the event, however since both of my cameras battery are dead I borrowed Kaye’s cam. So I was taking pictures of everyone and cam whoring as well, then I took a shot of the wine glass that I was using.

A few days after, Kaye uploaded the photos and she was surprise to see a face in the glass, she called everyone who was there with her and some said it was a man with a mustache, someone even said that it looks like Jesus Christ (thou shall take the name of Lord in vain, Sorry) and she even thought it looks like Che Guevara (I thought so too).

At first I really can’t see the image on the glass, but after showing it to everyone in the house including my two aunts and my mother, that’s the only time I believe that there is really a figure. But I’m a person who don’t easily believe in what can’t be explained by science or by logic I refuse to think that it’s an apparition or some sort of a warning, although everyone in the family is making fun of me, teasing that it’s a sign because I don’t go to church regularly (oh well).

I think there must be some logical explanation as to how that image or that figure was formed. You can clearly see my finger prints if you look closer at the image, the temperature of the wine reacting to the temperature of the glass thus creating moist, the dark background and of course the glare coming from the flash of the camera all contributed to the illusion. But whatever that is, I really don’t buy the idea that it’s supernatural or what not, I’m not someone who would go and shout “I saw a sign” (in the tune of ACE of BASE) or change my way of living because it’s a signal that I’m not living in holiness or I have an afflicted spiritual life or because I don’t go to church regularly and other reasons that I hope not to offend anyone. I know where my faith is and I’m confident that I’m a Christian and I believe in the Holy Trinity.

Anyway just for the fun of it, I think I saw Adolf Hitler, Che Guevara and after zooming out the image I can see Alf (haha). Well, I hope it’s not kulot my friendly guard (kulot is what we call this entity it is coined after some witnesses said it has a curly hair) my friends believed that it has been following me since college. I barely believe in kulot but my ex boyfriends (HAHA only had 3 serious, ok?!^^) claimed that they have seen it in our house. They have the same description under different scenarios of course, someone even saw it standing behind me while I was waiving goodbye and it’s quite an annoyance since it can imitate voice and pretend to be someone. Haven’t heard about kulot for a long time, maybe because I am single (HAHA I’m starting to sound like a freak here). Well, just check the photos.