A What?! What Trilogy? Mamasan Trilogy!

I’m a 90’s kid, I grew up during the grunge era *and it’s my preference I was never really the disco fanatic*; I think most of the kids during those times are the most successful adults now. Those who grew up listening to some disturbed, emotionally tainted, rebellious and political songs of the 90s.

Nothing really fancy today except that I started my day listening to Pearl Jam’s Better Man and suddenly remembered the Eddie Vedder’s “Mamasan Trilogy”. I remember during my high school days listening to the 3 songs under that so called “trilogy” and trying to figure out why and how it can be related to that “mini –opera” and since I was still young then and I lack in experience my understanding is quite shallow literally basing it on the words but not looking at the big picture or the essence of the context, but now listening to it again I get a different perspective and POV as compared 15 years ago.

Mamasan trilogy is a product of Vedder’s brilliant mind, although some claimed that the Trilogy was not true but I think the mini opera is quite scary and tragic. Just to give some idea about the Trilogy it’s a story about a boy grew up believing that his father was his real father and his confusion about his mother’s love and because everything has been too complicated he grew up a wrong man and made mistake that would put end to his life… something like that...better check this link to understand more. Here<--------(credit to the link owner)

Some of the Lines from the Trilogy

Alive~ Chapter I

"Son," she said, "have I got a little story for you
What you thought was your daddy was nothin' but
While you were sitting home alone at age thirteen
Your real daddy was dyin', sorry you didn't
See him but I'm glad we talked"
Oh, I, oh, I'm still alive
Hey, I, oh, I'm still alive
Hey, I, oh, I'm still alive
Hey, oh-oh
While she walks slowly across a young man's room
She said, "I'm ready for you"
I can't remember anythin' to this very day
'Cept the look, the look, oh
You know where, now I can't see, I just stare

"Is somethin' wrong?" she said
Well, of course there is
"You're still alive," she said
Oh and do I deserve to be?
Is that the question?
And if so, if so
Who answers?
Who answers?

Once~ Chapter II

I admit it, what's to say? Yeah
I'll relive it without pain, mmm
Back street lover on the side of the road
I got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode
I got a sixteen gauge buried under my clothes
I play
Once
Upon a time
I could control myself
Ooh, once
Upon a time
I could lose myself
Yeah
Oh, try and mimic what's insane, eh
I am in it, where do I stand? Uh
Indian summer and I hate the heat
I got a back street lover on the passenger seat
I got my hand in my pocket, so determined, discreet
I pray
Yeah ,

You think I got my eyes closed but I've been lookin' at you the whole f*cking time

Footsteps~ Chater III

Don't even think about reachin' me
I won't be home
Don't even think about stoppin' by
Don't think of me at all
I did, what I had to do
If there was a reason, it was you...
Don't even think about gettin' inside
Voices in my head, voices
I got scratches, all over my arms
One for each day, since I fell apart
I did, what I had to do
If there was a reason, it was you...
Footsteps in the hall, it was you, you
Pictures on my chest, it was you
It was you...
I did, what I had to do
And if there was a reason
Oh, there wasn't no reason, no
And if, there's something you'd like to do
Just let me continue, to blame you

***the photo is totally unrelated to the post. Mmmmm just a preview to my next post ^^. ~~~Totally Random!

How Bizarre~ September!

Things aren't sailing the way I wanted it to be, but this September I expect my winds to shift into a different direction. And just when I thought that everything is at mess--- tadah! A savior scooped me out of the puddle of mud! And I skip and hop and hum!

Technically I should not be greeting everyone a Merry Christmas, it’s too early for merry greetings but since I’m in the mood ~~~Merry Christmas ^^

August was a burden on the later part and I was annoyed by some people especially with the one who send me that nasty email…Hahaha! I had written my two cents about that issues but it’s something that I should not talk about when I’m feeling a little gorgeous. But I still wanna put some excerpts of what I have written. Here it goes:

Thing are really getting annoyingly out of hand and I’m on the verge of frying that man! Yeah, I’m pissed off the fact that those kids don’t know what the heck they are talking about made me cringe in anger. I would never and doesn’t have any intention of destroying their relationship, the fact that those tweets are under my accounts and no name was mentioned clearly states that I won’t meddle in their issues and those are mine if anyone would react then I shall say you are guilty as charge. Unfortunately, as he effin claim that he is not lurking in my life ~isn’t true, the fact that he send me those nasty email in conjunction to what I have tweet and accused me of prowling in his life is an effin lie because he wouldn’t react if he was not silently reading my tweets and this blog at the comfort of his own friggin time! Aha! You are reading my blog! Hohoho! Caught you! Sneaky sneaky!

You! on the other hand, would understand when you grow up that these things are too complicated to handle and would hope it won’t happen to you! I’m sure when the right time comes you would thank me for being this straight. Are you ready to handle the consequences of your action? Are you ready to get involve in a difficult situation that would require emotional and legalities not to mention facing the truth that we are in? Are you ready to let everyone including your Fam (if you are that bad serious abt it) know the truth about your relationship without losing their trust, humiliating or hurting them? Those are the questions that you should be asking yourself because no matter how you deny the fact we cannot run away! Yes WE! Hehehe I’m part of it so lets partey like it’s hot!

I for a fact don’t want to get involve with that person in any form of relationship. He put me in a great deal of humiliation and destroyed what I have worked hard to achieve and I would never forgive him on that matter. The fact that he is so selfish, stubborn and inconsiderate of mine and the little boy’s situation is unacceptable and I would never pay the respect that he is claiming to earn. You mister doesn’t deserve any reverence in any form. And I have never loathed anyone in my years of existence and you will always remind me of that feeling, no matter how I resist anger. And I (in God’s time) will commit myself again, but until that right time comes I won’t involve anyone at my mess because I believe in K-A-R-M-A! *Chameleon, they come and go wooh-ooh!*

The end.

**I might scrub this out after 3 days or so, I don’t want to taint my space. I know--- I said it’s just an excerpt but 'twas long believe me when I say that I have cut it to make it short. I think I have written like 2000 words for that issue alone! Hahahaha!

September is giving me a good vibes. IDK, but I smell scents of lilies and pine trees it gives me a good feeling. My mood is perfect and before I knew it I’ll be hearing Christmas carols plus the weather is getting breezy. I’m getting the Christmas jitters. So welcome Ber-months!

Oh and for my playlist, I’ve been listening to Bice *pronounce as bee-che* she’s a Japanese singer/songwriter, she composed several anime soundtrack like Mahoraba~ Heartful days, Kirarin Revolution and Kimi wa petto (Japanese Manga Adaptation). Unfortunately she died of heart attack last July 26, 2010, she’s just 38 years of age. She’s a genius songwriter and according to her last blog she was supposed to release a song or collaborate for an upcoming anime. I specially love her songs Cloudy Sky, Like Someone in love, Akubi, Tsusunde Ageru, and An apple a day. Her song Like Someone in Love and Cloudy Sky is constantly playing on my list. I’m thinking of cutting my bangs in full to show my heartfelt tribute to her ^^ Rest in Peace Bice. Kanpai anata no jinsei ni!

Anyways, here’s a preview of what I did on the first day of September, I’ll be writing about the place and the food on a different account. This was at Chungkiwa my favorite Korean Restaurant in Makati, I’ve been there a couple of times so I think they deserve some commendation ^^jalmugutseumnida! Kamsahamnida!^^

Welcome September! Give me some good clouds ^^v

Hey you SELF, what’s up?

I've been busy going around my Technicolor life. Here are some of them in photos:

There’s a new craze in town, it’s the SCRAMBLE baby! I wasn’t really sure about it at first because I remember how I was deprived by my mother to eat those yummy pink concoctions when I was a kid. But WTH I’m old enough to decide for myself, hehehe I can now eat those hepatitis mix without being scold and beside it’s being sold in the mall so I assume it went through a food screening process and certification.

I’m a cat. I eat rice in a can, meow! This is lunch Paella in can. I find it weird at first because all I can think of when I saw Roland eating them is “Friskies” *Cat Food* lols but one time I was really craving for rice and I can’t find any at Ministop and I can’t order take-outs so I settled with Paella in can, not a bad idea, although it doesn’t taste as good as the real Paella and little pricey for 39 pesos but good enough to fill my tummy.

I’m a Japanese and Korean food lover, actually I also lurpe Thai and other Asian cuisine and as much as I would hate to admit I lurpe eating and I enjoy food. Taken at Kaya! I had (again) Dolsot Bibimbap and I'm not really that satisfy with how they prepare my food, quite pricey and not as authentic as those restos in Makati. But I lurpe their Kimchi and Myulchi bokkeum, unfortunately you have to pay for each side dish, tsk that's not fair considering how small their serving is hmmm....I've learned my lesson.

Ramen or Ranyum (as how they call it in Korea) is one of my comfort food. I love this Nong Shim Shin Raymun Spicy Mushroom; I love how it tastes when it’s a little cold. I usually buy at few packs for my msg-cravings supply and I also love the Spicy kimchi ranyum and wash it down with oolong tea, oh man!

This was taken a few weeks ago when my brother and I went for a little shopping, actually he was the one who went on shopping and I was just a by stander, hehehe.

Trying out clothes for myself and I was also assigned to choose a dress for Jess ( Bro's GF) and try em. We went from one store after another. I enjoy having him around, you see, he is not the typical guy who would glare at you when you enter a boutique and would rather wait outside, he’s the type who would be kind to accompany you and even check if the clothes suits your style or not. Clap clap to my brother!

We got that bohemian inspired dress for Jess and I got a navy inspired dress and a chic of the edge Japanese inspired dress that I wasn’t able to take photos because I was so excited fitting them. But I got to try out the mannequin’s hair! Hohoho!

Paper Crane Folding 101. I don’t know what has gotten into me but maybe because I’m a Joongbo Fan, yes I am and i love them both hehehe! I said why not study how to fold one! I remember elementary days when kids are showing off their skills in origami folding and I was a lazy-oh-not-so-interested but now I know how to fold one with the help of (of course) Internet!!! Hehehehe!

Gracey’s Birthday Treat at Gilligans. We gave her some cupcake treats and a little cake so she can blow her wish! =) Go get a Boyfriend! oh and it's on process...bwaaaahahaha!

Wacky got a little under the weather. I rushed him to medical city because his fever won’t subside. He was absent in school for 3 days and I was a little panicky because there’s a dengue outbreak in our village luckily it was just a simple flu. Really handsome despite the fact of being sick, he still manage to pose in a 39.4 temperature. His face is really charming. He always gets a second look from people and when he speaks, he speaks with wit. That's my Joaquin.

Lastly here’s a picture to represent my position in the email that I received few days ago! Cover your eyes to feel no pang of guilt, hate or whatsoever. And eat Fruits it will help you decrease your paranoia and increase your happy thoughts! Lols

Peace out!

I’m a Dream Catcher in the Rye

I said lately I haven’t been dreaming or maybe because I don’t get enough sleep that’s why dreams are mostly forgotten. In those three to five hours of my sleep-deprive-life dreams wouldn’t be possible.

Dreams are series of images, suggested emotions, sounds that we experience during sleep. It’s an honest representation of our feelings, mostly we dream of the things that we desire, the things that are bugging us our current concerns, our triumphs or dilemma.

I used to wake up and stay still for a moment to silently recall all my dreams. I used to keep a book about dreams and analyzed all the symbols that I saw during my sleep. But lately it’s different I can’t recall any of it and I am worried that I might be lacking in self awareness or I might lose my emotional attachment to the world.

I want to see stars, rainbow, unicorn and mermaids, a field full of violets and cherry blossoms, I wish to enter the whimsical land and those beautiful things that gives us a good feeling after a dazed full of sleep. I wonder if we lose our ability to dream as we age, I wonder if it’s just me or I’m an exceptional case. I wonder if there’s really a dreamland. What if my name is not on their list anymore? hihihi.

"Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you'll start missing everybody".~ Cather in the Rye

I just wanna be OK… A-OK! ~Memoirs of a Kid

Marshmallow, Cotton Candy, Bubble Gum, Candy Sprinkle, Cup Cakes, Pink Popcorn, Unicorn, Rainbow, Tulips, Sundae, Cherry, Strawberry kiwi shake, chocolate mouse, blueberry cheese cake, gummy bears, Red Vine and Green Apple liquorices, Ice cream, Popsicles, lollipop and sugar powder, balloons, Cherry blossom, muffins, chocolate chips, lemon drops, paper cranes, ukulele, castles, red shinny shoes, ribbons, rainy days curling in my sheets, fruit loops, smurf, pilipit and all the…………..Happy Thoughts! Imaginnnnnation….. ----> Spongebob to Patrick.

It’s just one of those random days when I feel like thinking of those things that make and doesn’t make sense at all. Today I feel like reminiscing my childhood memories. I think I was the weirdest amongst the kids in our block. My skin color is too dark to wear pink, my hair is dull and is the oiliest. I have the US map and its neighboring island as a scab on my knees, my face is full of sticky candy stains and I eat ice cream... hmmmm…no, I mean, I wash my face with ice cream and eat it, hehe. My body built can be mistaken for a lizard and I have boys for playmate but I am a princess in my own little corner, in our house.

As a kid I feel good whenever I get sick because I get to eat Pilipit. We all have our comfort food when we were young and mine is Pilipit (twisted stone hard bread coated with sugar) my mother will never fail to buy me those and I don’t know why it only taste good when I’m sick.

I love it whenever PAGASA suspend classes, it means binge eating, porridge, champorado or sopas day. I also have this weird desire of dressing up and stepping outside. Feel the rain drizzle in my face. I would ware my sweat shirts or fabulous jackets and hat and pose like some kind of weird London kid in the block, Hohoho.

I would ride a bike wearing daster (dress) and panic when I feel a gust of wind lifting my skirt, and would end up adding more maps on knees (luckily, those are not visible anymore). Saturday morning will always be touch ball or soccer or touch the color. My favorite was touch the color, my mother got me a fantabulous polka dot shorts with different colors on it; I would exclusively use it for that game and earn a lot of chasers and boy, how I run like a hyena.

I would fancy my lunch box; those that are old school deaf defying metal lunch box. I would grin like a sick-o on my pencil case with 300 secret pockets and storage and call it nightrider and put hermits inside and shake it till the hermit fall a sleep, hehe. I would smell my new notebooks and erasers. Fancy are those candy erasers that we held high to the glimmering light and think that it’s the greatest creation that man has ever invent in the history of humanity. I never collected stationeries and kisses though, it’s a fraud hohoho. since my first kisses never gave birth.

While everyone else was dying to have those colorful attaché case and stroller, well I was dying to have a glittered hair gel (just writing this makes me chuckle pffft~ me and my shallowness)

There you go, I’m feeling ok as in A-OK! This is good at least for today and maybe read it again whenever I feel a little bit down or maybe write those that I might remember.

Today I’m listening to "BE OK" by Irish Michaelson.

Give me thy Superpowers Arrrrgh!

I’m currently doing a research that is work related but I can’t help reading other articles in the internet. Since I’m in wiki and was jotting something about some superpowers that I wish to acquire in my life (seriously) moments ago. To aid my boredom I decided to type in list of abilities that was graciously entertained by wiki so I landed on the “List of Abilities –Heroes Wiki”.

I scroll down and there were like trillions of them written with full description (the trillion part is not true). My dorkus side kicks in and before I knew it I was picking all the superpower slash abilities that I wish to use to take advantage and control human civilization *Bwaaaaaaaaahahahaha*

Here are my chosen abilities:

Rapid Cell Regeneration: The ability to heal wounds without scarring. This totally reminds me of a lizard they have that ability. Wouldn’t it be nice if I can chop my nose off and wait for it to grow till I get the desired shape and size?

Space-time manipulation: one of my favorite characters is Hiro Nakamura. The ability to alter the space-time continuum, including slowing down, speeding up, reversing, stopping, moving backwards and forwards through time, and moving instantaneously through space. I shall say that his ability in a not so complex form is to time travel. That I like! No need to book and pay air fare. Just thinking about it makes me all giggly with excitement. I would lurve to go back to historical events in real time and outwit all history professors in this world hahaha!

Technopathy: This I like too. Remember the kid Micah Sanders and how he manipulated all those ATM machines to get some dough. That will be totally cool! I go shopping and raid all the ATM Machines in the mall woot! And buy all those high end gadgets and create bugs that only I can solve hehehe!

Weather Control: Since I live in a country with a very fickle weather I would be happy to have this and shut down PAGASA!

Lie Detector: The ability to detect when others lie. And I would run the judiciary system of the Philippines. Hahahaha! And everyone else will hate me!

Age Transferal: The ability to transfer the aging and life force to and from an object and make the user younger or older. Who needs Belo or Calayan when you got me buddy! No more 7 signs of aging!

I’m running out of time and I need to sleep soon but there are still some that needs to be included in my list so I guess this is just the First Part. I have too many ideas running in my pea brain but my ability to manipulate time is out of order so I’ll post the continuation later. Remember with great powers comes great responsibility.